Look at this fuckin tree

October 23th, 2024

Ok it's too big to show properly because of blog scrolling format but I don't care.

Look at this beautiful colour gradation!! The blossoming reds dispering into oranges and yellows before settling into it's natural summer greenery.

I'm actually really happy to see this outside my window every day, because there's been this like, tree sickness around. Some kind black mold that kills leaves early and just looks diseased. This tree was a big victim of it, and usually lost a lot of foilage before it could experience it's fall turnover. There's still a bit of it, if you go down and look, but damn it's really bounced back!!! Ganbatte tree-kun...

Anyways, I am here, to yap, on the internet, as I do. Hello gang. I work in all manners on the internet in a feast or famine kinda way. You get to see me being really annoying and present only for a couple weeks and then I vanish for a few weeks or months. Feast, Feast!!

Day 4 progress

Still at it!! It's going, surprisingly, well?

Today I decided to go youtube/musicless overall, instead deciding to spend my sewing hours playing through more Twisted Wonderland. I stopped doing the story around a third of the way into chapter 5 and just, that was like a year ago or something. I managed to almost get through the entire chapter and plan on finishing up a bit more work tonight to get to the end.

It's an easy read while working. The main story is fully voiced, so it gives the auto text function a pretty good feel for how long to hang on a textbox. I think I'll try catching up on some fgo when I run out of twst content to read, but the auto function just never felt right. Either too fast or way too slow, and you can set it yourself but I just can't find a sweet spot!!!

Plus twst is pretty low gameplay. A chapter is like, 85% visual novel with the occasional battle or rhythm game segment. I've done nothing but make a strong squad instead of doing the story, so I can pretty safely just auto generate an elemental team and let it fight for itself. The rhythm segments are the only part that requires active input, and it asks like a minute, minute and a half of your time every 2 hours. It's pretty chill.

Does this aid my current goals of cutting down on distractions and dopamine in my life?

Honestly? Yeah

My ranking of things that turn my brain into sludge has SocMed(#1, the devil) and Youtube/podcasts at the top. They're default states of being that I've just let take over my life. They do not require me to actively participate, just consume. If a youtube video has too much video content I just go find something else generally. It's just the background noise of my life.

Paired with those videos would be idle games. They're the perfect brainless activity to occasionally give me something to tap and be busy with so I was doing something more than just boring work completely. Trick my brain into thinking we could have fun while we sewed a billion bats.

These things paired have eaten up a lot of my life. Also farming games, I love harvest moon, but I can't lie and say it hasn't just become something I play because I want something that doesn't require me to turn off the video playing in my ears when I'm away from the pc chillin in bed.

Basically, I've forgo'd a lot of my in the last decade because I've just kinda put my senses on auto pilot and given into the ease of these things.

So yeah, am I playing a game/reading while I sew bats? Yeah. It's great. I've wanted to continue the story in twst for a long time, but just couldn't bring myself to do it because I'm unable to do anything I actually want to do in life. So to be able to kinda, chip away one of the bricks in that wall is pleasant.

I'll eventually run out of twst content, and find I don't want to play fgo again, and have to figure out where to go from there. That eventually and quite soon, I'll be back to commission work that doesn't allow me the ease of reading a vn as I pay my rent, and have to jump into the deep end. Go back to youtube while I work (not ideal) or sink for a bit until I'm used to my favourite toy being taken away.

This is the ease up into that!! I'm gently lowering myself into the lake!!

Anyways, I got in 7 hours yesterday and so far have slammed out 6 today. It's getting late (8pm)but as I said I do want to do a bit more work, so I'll aim for the 7hr mark and finish up my chapter.

I WAS planning on taking today off

But I have workaholic disease, even if sometimes I can't even do a full work day, it's all I focus on and that ruins the rest of my day. If I have the energy to work then I'll work. If I don't have the energy to work then I don't have the energy for other things.

Also it was supposed to be sunny today but it was cloudy and cold and I didn't want to go to the waterfront on a cloudy cold day :(

I did do my laundry though like I planed. I'll take that victory.

I did take it easy on myself and slammed through the second half of the book I've been reading. I have a lot of complains about it, especially the first 60%, but I've already written that blog post in my brain earlier today so actually typing it out sounds like a hassle. I'll complain about it later if I feel like it. I write a lot of blog posts in my brain. Pick them out yourself before the season is over!!

Ok bye I have more bats to sew!!! I'M ALMOST THERE I'VE ALMOST MAILED OUT EVERY COHOST SALE BUT THERE'S STILL MORE TO MAKE BUT CHECKPOINT!!!!!!

God I'm incredibly bad at taking days off. Let's see if I can clear my queue before my brain burns to a crisp.