Crushed by the internet - Incoherent rambling

October 9th, 2024

I feel like I'm drowning.

Today I looked at youtube comments on a horror game video to see theories, and very quickly just saw people devolving into attacking each other over if fatphobia was real or not.

This week I made the mistake of replying to a friend on twitter while I was settling down for bed. I shouldn't of replied to someone on twitter touched it because I put my foot in my mouth apparently. Many suchs cases.

This month the algorithm on twitter has become increasingly toxic. It's pushing more and more anime culture war at me. I look at a friend's tweet and it decides that it should recommend me the drama of the week beneath it everytime.

Even trying to quit SNS, my friends get mad at people on twitter so they come to discord to complain about them, dragging even more mud into my life.

For years now I've dreaded anyone interacting with me on twitter, because just the nature of the site makes every interaction a chance for PVP.

The modern internet does nothing but make my anxiety explode. The thought of anyone knowing I have an Opinion on anything grows a lump in my throat and makes me want to puke.

A thousand new ways to fuck up social interactions and 99.9% of the time I don't even have to participate to know someone hates that I exist.

There is no peace and love on planet earth, I should just rot in my bed until it's over.

Ok there is peace and love on planet earth actually. Yasorou on tumblr just posted these cute lil fuckers and you should click the image to see the full photoset thank u.